I wrote this last weekend (3/27/09) on another online forum that I’m a member of. Yes, I am that dorky. Enjoy…

 

So, how many of you have ambitions that no matter how hard you try, you’ll never be able to make it happen as soon as you want it to?

As I sit here drinking by myself (yeah you heard that right), I am growing more and more frustrated with life. Granted, for a 25 year old, I definitely have some things going for me. Nothing extravagant, but probably much better than the majority of people my age and younger.

Anyways, I just cannot wait to start my own gym. I put together a 5 year plan, but I don’t know if I can wait that long. I literally think about it every waking moment I’m awake. I think about where it should be, I think about how big it needs to be, I think about what I could provide, I think about how much it would intially cost as well as operating cost, I think about getting investors involved, I think about the atmosphere I want to create, …. I friggin think about EVERYTHING. And when I’m not thinking about it, I’m reading. I keep up with probably a dozen websites that deal specifically with what I want to do.

On top of all that, I have this website, I’m helping out my friends, studying to get accredited, and am trying to keep up with my own goals, personal life, and hobbies. I am also considering writing a “lifestyle” book for Gen Y….admittedly there is a slim to none chance that will happen, but I am thinking about it.

All of that combined, I could give a shit about my professional career. I do the bare minimum to get paid and get my annual raises. Right now my career is a means to the end. It allows me to do things financially that, if I started my own gym or was just a regular personal trainer, I wouldn’t be able to do. So, I will continue the daily grind knowing that it is merely financing my future ambitions.

What this whole rant boils down to is frustration. I’m frustrated that I have to keep my lame ass job for the next couple of years. I’m frustrated that I can’t have my gym now. I’m frustrated that I have to pretend to be someone I’m not (you wouldn’t believe how many people look at me funny and ask questions at work; sorry, I’m not your typical lame ass engineerd). And above all, I’m frustrated I don’t have the money to get this going.

This is something I’ve wanted for a long time, and I know this is something I will achieve. I just want it now. Damn American instant gratification.

Soooooo, I thank you for reading this enormously long rant. And just so this isn’t a thread all about me, it would be very helpful to hear some of your ambitions that are just taking too long. You know, so that I know I’m not in this boat all by myself. I realize it would be easier if I had a comments section at the end of these posts, but the Facebook group is going to have to work for now. Trust me, I’m working on it.