I wrote this last weekend (3/27/09) on another online forum that I’m a member of. Yes, I am that dorky. Enjoy…
So, how many of you have ambitions that no matter how hard you try, you’ll never be able to make it happen as soon as you want it to?
As I sit here drinking by myself (yeah you heard that right), I am growing more and more frustrated with life. Granted, for a 25 year old, I definitely have some things going for me. Nothing extravagant, but probably much better than the majority of people my age and younger.
Anyways, I just cannot wait to start my own gym. I put together a 5 year plan, but I don’t know if I can wait that long. I literally think about it every waking moment I’m awake. I think about where it should be, I think about how big it needs to be, I think about what I could provide, I think about how much it would intially cost as well as operating cost, I think about getting investors involved, I think about the atmosphere I want to create, …. I friggin think about EVERYTHING. And when I’m not thinking about it, I’m reading. I keep up with probably a dozen websites that deal specifically with what I want to do.
On top of all that, I have this website, I’m helping out my friends, studying to get accredited, and am trying to keep up with my own goals, personal life, and hobbies. I am also considering writing a “lifestyle” book for Gen Y….admittedly there is a slim to none chance that will happen, but I am thinking about it.
All of that combined, I could give a shit about my professional career. I do the bare minimum to get paid and get my annual raises. Right now my career is a means to the end. It allows me to do things financially that, if I started my own gym or was just a regular personal trainer, I wouldn’t be able to do. So, I will continue the daily grind knowing that it is merely financing my future ambitions.
What this whole rant boils down to is frustration. I’m frustrated that I have to keep my lame ass job for the next couple of years. I’m frustrated that I can’t have my gym now. I’m frustrated that I have to pretend to be someone I’m not (you wouldn’t believe how many people look at me funny and ask questions at work; sorry, I’m not your typical lame ass engineerd). And above all, I’m frustrated I don’t have the money to get this going.
This is something I’ve wanted for a long time, and I know this is something I will achieve. I just want it now. Damn American instant gratification.
Soooooo, I thank you for reading this enormously long rant. And just so this isn’t a thread all about me, it would be very helpful to hear some of your ambitions that are just taking too long. You know, so that I know I’m not in this boat all by myself. I realize it would be easier if I had a comments section at the end of these posts, but the Facebook group is going to have to work for now. Trust me, I’m working on it.
Well, all I can say is look at how much PROGRESS you’ve made since you initially wrote this (not such a long tome ago..but SO MANY ACCOMPLISHMENTS)..Please try to switch the mode from frustration to MOTIVATION, be it an urgent and a BURNING DESIRE to succeed. You’ve got what it takes, dude..and on a personal note, I’m highly MOTIVATED to continue with my training& nutrition schedule in order to look AWESOME, be healthy..oh, and yes FINALLY find my SOUL MATE (and she’d better be H-O-T!!)..Thank you for your unique way of putting things 🙂
I am the same! Registered my business name + website. Just got to hurry up and finish my course so I can officially work!
It’s funny how often my boss will ask me a work question and I’ll stare at him blankly as it takes a while to register what he’s on about because I am busy thinking about my own business.
The feeling of having the “fire under your ass” is an incredible thing! It means you’re following your passion, and I feel many people aren’t as fortunate as those of us who are able to do this! I can relate BIG time…there is not one waking moment where some sort of work-related idea/thought crosses my mind. It can be maddening at times, and my friends try to get me to “ease up” and just relax…but it’s hard when you’re fired-up about something! Even harder when it’s your profession and you LOVE it! Keep your chin up and maintain your attitude that your current job is a means to an end…you have an awesome goal in sight and it WILL happen! Can’t wait to hear more about it as your journey continues!
Yours in Health,
Sarah
The daily grind can get old, especially when it interferes with what you really want to do! But unfortunately, we do have bills to pay, so we must keep grinding away.
I too have plans for my own business, and hope to be able to do it full time. But I have a ways to go before I can make the switch.
Good luck!
@Avi
Thanks again, brotha. Your work ethic is very inspirational.
@anna
Haha! I have graduated from the blank stares and just flat out tell him he’s nuts if he thinks I know what he’s talking about. lol
@Sarah
Thanks for stopping by! I’m glad there’s someone out there that understands me. 99% of my friends just don’t “get it” yet.
@jon
Bills. What a load of crap, right? Thanks for the encouragement. I think we’ll both be successful….someday.