**Update – post writing: The first sentence below is a lie. I went into a lot of detail. **
I feel like I have a lot to say, but don’t have the energy to go into a lot of detail. Or maybe it’s because I have to pee. Either way, let’s take a trip up into my dome-piece and see what falls out. Wut?
One of the concepts we learn at The Movement seminar is the question: “at what cost?” In terms of training, sure you can do 20 rep squats everyday. At what cost? Sure, you can train every set until failure. At what cost? Sure, you can ignore that twinge of pain in your shoulder during bench press and power through it. At what cost? Are you willing to accept the consequences? Maybe breaking your 225 lb. rep PR is really *REALLY* important. Is it so important that it’s worth tearing your pec and not being able to train for the next 3 months? Get it? Got it. Good.
What has this got to do with my brain?
I don’t know exactly when, it’s somewhere around 3-4 weeks ago, I stopped training (maybe even more). Right around the time I wrote my (now hypocritical) post, Tis the Season to be Anabolic. Actually, I had stopped a week or two before that, but that was the week I was planning my grand re-entrance to the gym…..and then didn’t.
The decision to stop training is justifiable to me, the only person that really matters. The amount of time is undetermined. The reason: to figure shit out.
I could tell there was a lot on my mind, and it was beginning to show in my workouts. Pretty much every session was in distress (I’ve experienced this in the not-so-distant past). I contemplated the associations I had made before and why this was happening again.
The same associations keep popping up time and time and time and time again: real estate in TX and my engineering career. I believe I’ve even written that here, somewhere.
It has finally come to a point where I have to get these 2 things out of my life. HAVE TO. Once I decided that I need to work on these two things, I needed to ask myself: At what cost?
Pay the Cost to be the Boss
(That was a little Snoop Dog for ya.)
For me, the cost has been training. According to The Movement‘s handheld bodyfat measurer-thing-a-majigger, I was right on the cusp of single digit bodyfat and 165lb. All of my lifts had increased during that time as well.
Now? I’m probably back up to the 12-15% bodyfat range. Even I won’t say that’s “fat”, but it ain’t no single digit either. I’m also probably slightly weaker, though that will come back within a couple weeks once I get going again.
One of the places in TX looks like it has a legitimate chance of being sold within the first couple months of 2011. I originally decided that I was going to get rid of it at all costs, including pre-planned foreclosure. I took action and got the ball rolling with my real estate agent to hopefully avoid the foreclosure route. It’s amazing what you can do once you get people motivated to help you out in times of dire needs. Yes, folks, “dire”.
My engineering job? I can’t go into detail publicly, but there has been some developments on that front as well. Some of them are engineering. Some are not. Some are exciting. Some I’ve already brushed off. Regardless, there’s hope.
In my talks with Frankie, and what I will eventually find out from the half-library worth of books he suggests I read, I’ve learned that the brain is wired for three (3) basic (primal) tasks: keeping the race alive (reproduction), survival, and making associations.
The two distressors I’m dealing with largely have to do with survival (money). They also fall into other areas slightly. But once I get the money situation under control, I can focus on the other two areas. As Mr. Montana says, “first you get the money, then you get the power, then you get the women.” He’s not that far off. First you survive, then you procreate. See?
The New Methods
Even though neither of these things have come to fruition (yet), it has allowed me to utilize a great psych management tool: day dreaming.
I used to day dream a lot, but they were more like empty threats than something I whole-heartidly believed could come true. Now, with strong evidence that the two (2) gigantic anchors that have been holding me back for the past 3-4 years could actually be gone, these day dreams seem much much much more realistic.
I’ve also been playing around with a couple chemical state management tools, one being comfort foods and the other, a Vitamin B Complex.
To the everyday person, “comfort food” sounds eerily similar to “emotional eating.” Well, um….YES. I am eating foods that I hope will change my emotions. However, I’m not binging on them. And also, yes, they are the reason I’m gaining weight again since I’m not moving enough to burn the calories off. It’s too be expected, and my relationship with food is healthy enough, I know not to blame the food.
As for the Vitamin B complex, some studies (and endless marketing campaigns by supplement companies) show that Vitamin B may help regulate and/or sythesize some feel good neuro transmitters like seretonin and epinephrine.
I am not saying that this vitamin is required for all people. I am not saying that this vitamin is the absolute *root cause* of my better moods. I’m not even saying that Vit B would do anything for YOU specifically. I am saying that since I’ve started taking it, I seem to be less irritable and can generally tolerate being at work. Hell, I’ve even been working *extra* hours at work, and that doesn’t seem to be affecting my state as much as it would have in the past, if at all.
Lastly, I’m starting a new blog. Yup, that’s right. Yet another way for you to stalk me. This new blog serves two (2) purposes. In respects to this post rightchea (white person translation: “right here”), it provides me an outlet to talk about my other love in this life, the outdoors. It will follow me and my buddies through our outdoor excursions. It will include all things hunting, fishing, camping, canoeing, anything, and everything.
I plan on reviewing new gear that I may be trying for the first time and sometimes even booze. We’re all from WI, and I haven’t been on a trip with these guys without some kind of booze. Might as well right reviews at the same time, eh?
I also hope to take tons and tons of pics and videos. More than what you’re used to seeing on here. The first video I hope to post will come this weekend when we try to make a ghetto fabulous 4-season tent out of an already ghetto fabulous 3-season tent. Boring for some of you, entertainment for me.
The effect of writing about something you love has a similar response in the brain as day dreaming. It takes you to another place. A place where there should be no distress. You may remember this place in movies such as Happy Gilmore.
Are we Done yet?
So anyways, that’s what seems to be working for me right at this moment: taking action, day dreaming, food, druggz, and more writing.
The cost is that I set myself back about 6-8 weeks in terms of physique goals once I finally get back into the gym (currently). (But hey, I still have a 4-pack and it IS winter, ya know. 😉 )
The payoff (eventually): Getting rid of two HEEEEE-YUUUGE distressors in my life. My eustress in real life (IRL) will lead to more eustress in training will lead to faster progress. It is well worth the cost (to me), and again, that’s all that matters.
Thanks for sticking with me during this time of low writing output and this rambletastic post.
Don’t Miss Your Chance
I was stuck in Corporate America for 9 years. I was miserable.
Then I took control.
You can too, and it starts right here.